Tuesday, August 19, 2008


I found this on an old friend's myspace, and thought I'd give it a shot:

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. You took such good care of him...he was so lucky to have you!

2. I was actually quite honored and felt very special when you acknowledged me by name in Cycling last week.

3. You might be ruining their lives.

4. Your child is like that because of you--there is a better way, but I can't bring myself to tell you that.

5. I feel completely abandoned by you--you've skipped out on all my major life events--my wedding, the birth of my child.

6. I think you're going to end up hurt in this situation.

7. Next time you're trying to walk somewhere I'm going to stop you and tickle your feet and get all up in your face.

8. You are not your *blanking* khakis.

9. Get off your butts and DO SOMETHING (yeah that one is for a group of people--that still counts, right? Wait--this is MY survey so I say it counts!)

10. You think you know, but you have no idea who Jesus Christ is.

NINE things about yourself:

1. I am actually really smart.

2. I don't know what I want to be when and if I grow up.

3. There are things about me that only my husband knows.

4. I am absolutely terrified of lizards.

5. I want to run a marathon, but don't think I can pay attention for that long.

6. I'm not all that concerned with the state of disarray my home is in right now.

7. My left foot is slightly bigger than my right foot.

8. If given the opportunity, I think I could actually win an eating contest.

9. If I told you what size jeans I wear you might kill me.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Be Josh Boldman.

2. Make me laugh.

3. Make me feel special.

4. Make me feel smart.

5. Show me who Jesus is.

6. Scratch your armpit.

7. Assure me that someday, I will get to have cool toys.

8. plaaaaaaay wiiiiiiith me!

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Jesus--and how I don't spend enough time with Him.

2. Zeke

3. Josh

4. Lost friendships--this one burns me up inside.

5. When can I have some mommy time?

6. I wonder how my former clients are doing.

7. am I going to finish my Master's degree? Am I going to go back and get another one? aaaaaarrrrgh!

SIX things you do for fun:

1. Starbucks

2. Shop but don't buy anything


4. Waste time on the internet

5. Play with Zeke

6. Do nice things for my hubby.

FIVE turn offs:

1. bad smells

2. putting pressure on me


4. acting like you're better than me or anyone else.

5. Being intrusive

FOUR turn ons:

1. Be Josh Boldman

Be Josh Boldman

Be Josh Boldman

Be Josh Boldman

THREE words that describe your life:

1. Guided

2. Important

3. Loved

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Travel more

2. See Zeke grow up

ONE confession:
I'm convinced that Netflix exists for the sole purpose of allowing me to watch Tyler Perry's movies.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

A Meme!

Here it is, everyone! My first Meme! I had to look up what a Meme was and how to actually pronounce it, just in case someone asks about it in real life :) Here goes:

The "I" Meme

I am
: home alone right now

I think
: my husband is the greatest pastor ever

I know: too many people.

I have: so much to be thankful for!

I wish: I could figure out what's wrong with my sweet baby when he cries.

I hate
: that my husband has to be out late.

I miss
: California

I fear
: disciplining my child someday.

I feel
: like I shouldn't have had real milk in my cereal

I hear: my husband's car pull into the parking lot

I smell: . that's it. I smell. :)

I crave: anything sweet!

I search: for the Lord's will.

I wonder: when's the next time I can have cake?

I regret: past decisions

I love: helping people grieve.

I ache: for the grieving and bereft.

I am not: superwoman...but you can't convince me of that.

I believe: I have a purpose

I dance: ballet

I sing: a lot.

I cry
: less now than I did 2-3 months ago

I don't always: have the right answer; but I act like I do.

I fight
: injustice

I write: to help me sort things out in my mind

I win: nothing when playing against my husband

I lose: EVERYTHING!!! I can never find my keys! In college it was my meal card! Arrrrgh!

I never
: have cash

I always: remember things that other people don't

I confuse: easily

I listen: to other people's problems

I can usually be found: at home with Zeke

I am scared: of many many things

I need: to read the bible

I am happy about
: my family

I imagine: a world where my child can grow up without fear

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Starting today........

Most of you know that I am a fan and follower (although VERY flexibly so) of Ezzo and Bucknam's "On Becoming Babywise." I also read the "Chronicles of a Babywise Mom" blog, for answers to my deepest, burning Babywise questions. And there are a lot of them! The authors suggest in their second book, "On Becoming Babywise II" (super-creative title, team!) that parents introduce structured playpen time to their children (it is also briefly addressed in the first book). Basically, you get out your playpen, get baby a few toys, put baby in the playpen, and walk away for a little while. The idea is to introduce your child to an increasingly large space where he can be safe, and at the same time, teach him to focus on just a few things at a time. This is thought to produce children who play independently and learn limits and boundaries. The next step, as the child gets older, is introducing this "independent play time" in increasing doses of freedom--next is a blanket, then the bedroom (once it has been properly baby-proofed). Playpen time also allows baby to get used to sleeping in another environment, as they suggest that you allow him to take some naps in it. I invite you to read the Babywise mom's blog for more details about independent play time, because she has a lot of experience with it, and her son Brayden loves it!!

Not long after Zeke was born, some awesome friends of ours blessed us with their old Evenflo Pack and Play playpen. Their son, Joshua (who is partly named after my husband!) is about to be two years old, and only used the Pack n' Play a few times. The gear came to us in a big Evenflo carrying case, and had a lot of metal parts rattling around in it, so I was extremely intimidated by it. Today, I resolved to set up the darn thing and start Zeke's independent playpen time...darn it! So I opened the case, and there it is, all folded up neatly, and it took two stinkin' seconds to set up!!! It just unfolds like an umbrella! The metal pieces that were rattling around were for the bassinet insert, which Zeke is too big for, anyway. There's even a changing table that attaches!!! This thing is so cool. Anyway, so I put Zeke in it in his Bumbo seat first, since he can't really sit up on his own. He needs a little work on sitting in the Bumbo and really just leans over to the side to balance himself, so I decided to take the Bumbo out and lay him on his back with his Baby Einstein Octopus (thanks, Brandon and Miranda!) and favorite rattle (thanks, Auntie JB and Shauna!). I'm close by so I can watch him, which still counts as independent play time, since he can't see me. Until he can sit up, I figure it's best if I keep an eye on him. Of course, I started this venture incredibly nervous that I would be causing my son some irreparable emotional damage by leaving him on his own for any length of time. Although, I've been giving him short spurts of time without me on his gym and in his swing for some time now, but whatever. Well it took him a few minutes to warm up to it, as it does with most new play environments, but he is now giggling, cooing, and rolling on his side, trying to kick the Octopus and (I like to think) make it play its music. He's doing great! This post, however, has taken me FOREVER to write because I keep looking over at him to make sure he's okay!!! Zeke really has no problem with playing independently. It's me who has the problem, but if I didn't have any guilt, I guess I wouldn't truly be a mother, right? I guess this is another example of how motherhood can be difficult, but we have to do some uncomfortable things for the good of our children. Zeke is seriously having a ball over there--I'm having to stop myself from picking him up, so he can have some more fun!

I'll post some more from the front lines of mommyhood soon!